Its True

Its very True.

I hate being looked at.

I dont try to dress too out of the ordinary, I dont wear freakish makeup (anymore). In fact, the reason I feel like I get so many stares is because I am trying so hard to ignore everyone.

When I come home, I dont want to even look at my dogs, my cats, my house. Nothing. I want to lock myself in a room thats completely empty and just think.

Is there time for this? No.
In my world, there is no such thing as an empty room.
All the spare rooms in this house are filled to the brim with junk. *Not My junk, but thats a story for another time.

Someone asked me if Im an energy vampire, and it hurt.

I told them it didnt hurt, I told them I wasnt mad, and Im not mad.

I am a little taken off guard, that maybe thats how everyone sees me?

Attention is what I used to feed off of, and now I just want to be left alone.

I tell everyone from the beginning I am awful, I will tear out their heart and serve it up burnt and still bleeding.
Do they listen? Not even for a second.

I almost feel like never picking up my cell phone again, because its just become too much. Its like this connection for me to whine and cry to everyone, and I feel so awful.
I honestly do.
Everyone is my dumping ground, but lately Ive tried to cut it all off.

I cant be someone Im not, but I dont want to be the person I am.

Thus, I have no solution but to go away for awhile.

Whine whine Ive now sucked your internet energy... now go away the internet is full.