scrooge

If I hear one more God forsaken Christmas Carol... or see another stupid snowman ornament, or green and red paper....

Im going to puke.

SHUT
UP

Tea

There is a close friend I have who has known me since I was a little girl and has always treated me like one of her own and been someone to call when I just didnt know what to say even and she'd have me over tea and dinners even when I was a unexpected guest in her home.

There are things you should never take for granted and true friends are one of those things.

I am so proud to see her take on something so harsh with Grace, Dignity, and a Positive Attitude.

You are so strong and I am SO grateful to have you in my life I hope you know that.

Aurora - 36 Crazyfists

Are you comfortable with the skin you’re in?
Are you screaming loud enough to be important?
Are you following the path that you thought you would or wouldn’t?
And you backed it all along when you’re pulling from what’s inside; it's honest there.

It took all these nights alone.
Alone we are.

Aurora, don't leave me yet.
Aurora, don't leave me yet.
Your lipstick-stained life is arriving. (It does arive, Fly)

So at ease with the night that we drove along.
From the top of the hill where we don't go.
And the stop where we claim our life, our place, forever.
And we dreamt it all along, from the nights when the light stayed alive, we shared.

It took all these nights alone.
Alone we are.

Aurora, don't leave me yet.
Aurora, don't leave me yet.
Your lipstick-stained life is arriving. (It does arive, Fly)
Your lipstick-stained life is arriving. (It does arive, Fly)

In hope I speak your name for closure.
By a thread we’ll hang, to never give in.

Aurora, don't leave me yet.
Aurora, don't leave me yet.
Your lipstick-stained life is arriving.
Your lipstick-stained life is arriving.
(Tonight may be the last night in these shoes.)

John M.

I will miss the way you called me Billy.

I will miss the way you always had a smile on your face.

You told me never to say Goodbye to you because it could be the last time I ever see you, and it was.

I will miss rolling your cigarettes because your the one who taught me how.

I will miss hearing you tell me what an amazing artist I am when I know I could never be as good as you.

I will miss hearing you call the neighbor a "geritol gyspy", and yelling into the phone that we're all a bunch of sex maniacs.

I will miss having you sit in the corner and mumble and swear, only to apologize for swearing and swear some more.

Most of all I'll miss you on Christmas Eve, when without fail every year you came to sit at our table and have a good laugh.

May you find peace in death that you couldn't find in life.

... Im sorry I said Goodbye, when you wouldn't let go of my hand until I said see you soon.

tuesdays with Morrie

' One afternoon, I am complaining about the confusion of my age, what is expected of me versus what I want for myself.

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says,
The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
"A wrestling match." He laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."
So which side wins, I ask?
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"Love wins. Love always wins."
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So. I finally found out my little Safeway helper guys name, and now I have forgotten it.
It was so sweet when he took my hand, looked far into my eyes and told me to have a wonderful day Miss! Dont forget the Miss. I think that guy has beautiful Karma ahead of him.

It is so hard sometimes to see these bright little moments. Ive been pretty bummed out and bitchy lately. The B week. Bitchy Bums in Boston.

I started tearing up at work yesterday. I managed to push it off until the drive home, when it all hit me. I was listening to the classical station at work, finishing up when the "The dance of the sugarplum fairies" came on. It instantly brought me a memory I hadnt thought of in years.
My mom bought my Grandpa and I tickets to The Nutcracker at the Jubilee one year. We both fell asleep half way through. He was probably tired and I think I was bored. Haha.

when will i stop