Captivating

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket -- safe, dark, motionless, airless -- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable . . . The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers . . . of love is Hell.

(C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves)

Random Weekend Peektures!

Light.

When you said you were scared, if you only knew how much it made me scared too.

When will you see that?

Shania Twain - Any Man Of Mine

Standard Suggestions - Hes Just Not That Into You

- I will not go out with a man who hasnt asked me out first.

- I will not go out with a man who keeps me waiting by the phone.

- I will not date a man who isnt sure he wants to date me.

- I will not date a man who makes me feel sexually undesirable.

- I will not date a man who drinks or does drugs to an extent that makes me
uncomfortable.

- I will not be with a man who's afraid to talk about our future.

- I will not, under any circumstances, spend my precious time with a man who has already
rejected me.

- I will not date a man who is married.

- I will not be with a man who is not clearly a good, kind, loving person.

My Lil' Cousin Emma

She is very much so the cutest little bug.

Bad Bad Boy.

So when you find another woman in the guy (whom you happened to like alot) car, WHAT SHOULD YOU DO?

You could be like me and blow a stop sign by total mistake and nearly collide with them in his car. With. Her. In. The. Passenger. Side.

Im not even sorry anymore. Of course I shake to think of the horrible wreck that would have been, but in a way shit happens on Friday The 13th. Fuck! Now I am caught between wanting to kill him and her both.

He tried to smooth it over but the thing is, how would he feel if he stopped by my place to find a guy in my truck who was spending the next 5 days at my place? HE probably wouldn't give a shit. In fact the more I analyze my situation and try to calm myself, I feel worse.

Friend my ass.

If she was such a friend to him she would have explained herself. FUCKING. FUCK. FUCK. SLUT. BITCH. SLUT. WHORE.

I am severely not impressed. I think I shall have to get nasty. TACHAE DOESNT LIKE TO BE FUCKED AROUND. Reminder of last March... Jim... Videos... Fucked. Game Over.

I feel like she is sleeping in his bed. I feel like something is going on. My 6th sense is bouncing off walls screaming in my veins to run so hard and so fast I wont remember his name. My heart hasnt stopped pounding since I saw them together in his car. I feel like Im going to be sick. I shake and I have this weird pain all over my body. If it couldnt get anymore clear, well ... I just have to see things for my own eyes. Probably wont. That doesnt make me feel any better.

Run. Run. Run. Run. Run.

Every woman has that one pair...

The Skinny Jeans. They are all dutifully kept sacred and secretly tucked away for that often thought of far away day that they MAY fit again. Against all odds and many weeks of taking sneak peeks at them ...

THEY FINALLY FELL OFF!!!

Oh Skinny Jeans. By no means am I skinny or even that gorgeous... but at least I got them on and then had them fall off my hips.. Such an uplifting feeling, till you realize that if you try to wear them out everyones gonna see your craaackkkk.

1st Birthday Without

This was my very first birthday without my Grandpa. Well... with him dead in the ground and not next to me.

I have to say I was alot more satisfied having dinner at my cousin Troy's with his family, parents and in laws, than I was getting piss drunk and not feeling good.

Well ... if you know me personally you'll know I wasnt in Calgary at all and it was very relaxing. I realize how dirty and screaming loud this city is when Im not in it.

Happy Birthday to me... Grandpa I really miss you. Be there tomorrow and everyday after. Please?

Birthday

My birthday this year was not spent in a hotel. Nor a bar. Nor the back of some mans car.

Haha.

Oh well. I enjoyed it.

Thoroughly.

Magic Tricks!

So shiny and purdy and shit. Boo... Now Im scared to drive it.

Sexxxyyyy want to touch the hiinneeeyyyy!!

Birthday Party